2. I will learn to turn a deaf ear to whatever people out there bitch about, as long as I am always in the known.

3. I would hate it when:
a. you THINK your life is the same as the other’s, which hurtfully disparage the presence and significance of your lover.

b. [ i wrote a point here but after so much consideration, i deleted the whole paragraph and wanted to give it more thoughts (through time). basically about friends and how close it should be that it wont get on your lover's nerves and about how love can turn a person in it to being selfish sometimes, to be honest. ]

i simply hate thursday the 13th.

* Update: It’s a warm balmy Friday when Im penning this update. Never before do I love the sun this much. It’s cooled down my mood (sounds paradoxical) to a great extent and on top of that, a message early in the morning put a smile back to my face. So I headed towards the S.A.M to top up my phone, texted back and dropped by Starbucks for my favorite white chocolate moccha. Life’s back.

but no longer for the sake of killing time.

im having good time. happy days. and after all, what i’ve really got is the uplifted mood to do whatever i want. thanks someone

“Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we’re already fightin’”

“Well that’s what we do, we fight… You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I’m not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you’re back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.”

“So what?”

“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day…“

“I am no one special. Just a common man with common thoughts. And I’ve led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect, I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who’s ever lived. I’ve loved another with all my heart and soul, and for me, that has always been enough.”

trashed. permanently deleted.

leaving behind whatever unnecessary.

and looking forward.

in love, i hope.

in you, i believe.

keeping our promises.

and being better.

….

but a bunch of thanks and appreciation for those who wanted to help me overcome my self-challenge, though i failed your belief finally.

for Monkey, chi Jerry, Meo, Fly.by and Ngan: the comments that are hugely encouraging, in one way or another.

for O., U., D.A. and V.: your talks and pieces of advice genuinely lifted me up from the constant depression and helped me while away my free time that tended to be swamped in distressing contemplation.

for C. for shopping on Monday (though it almost failed and your unpunctuality really got on my nerves), P.A. for jogging on Tuesday (though i was feeling bad and couldnt make it full round), V.T. for dinner and bookstore check-out on Wednesday as well as my classmates for the coming ice-skating trip on Friday.

for T. for keeping an eye on my cellphone previous nights so that i wouldn’t be distracted or provoked by sending a message or making a call.

for P., my intern colleague, for being bubbly with me all the time and sending me caring message at night to cheer me up.

for I., my nicest roomate ever, for being jolly with me all the time and lending me a hand when necessity arose.

and for C., especially, for the tremendous help, be it talking to me (over YM!) through the night when i couldn’t sleep a wink, offering me her own point of view and letting me making up my own mind, helping me making several calls in VN and most touchingly, helping me to make a ride in the middle of the night when i fell in huge crisis. from the bottom of my heart, im greatly grateful for all you’ve done for me the past few days.

those who i may have missed out, thanks for being with me. though im just a loser.

p.s. i will continue with my illustration attempt, if you wonder.

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Càng lúc càng mất lòng tin vào con người

Khi thương yêu bị sự ích kỷ bào mòn và gặm nhắm.

Thấy cuộc đời vốn dĩ không bằng phẳng giờ lại càng chông chênh hơn

…

Những cái mặt nạ…

…Tiền bạc

…Địa vị

…Công danh

Mãnh lực của nó lớn đến vậy sao? Tình cảm không thể chiến thắng ma lực của những thứ phù phiếm làm cho con người trở nên hèn hạ, nhỏ nhen và ích kỷ hay sao?

Tại sao người ta lại cần tiền hơn cần tình cảm? Tại sao người ta lại leo lên cái đỉnh thật cao rồi lo sợ mình rơi xuống mà đánh đổi những thứ không thể mua được cho cái đỉnh cao danh vọng đó?

Đồng tiền…Nó ghê gớm đến vậy à?

Đồng tiền… Nó có thể hóa đá trái tim con người được à?

Trời ơi!

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Con người sống để cắn nhau đau

Thì hoặc là đừng làm người, hoặc đừng sống

Gỡ mặt nạ xuống đi những ham giành trên chính lòng tự trọng, những thực dụng trên chính tình người.

Biết đến khi nào, đầu mình mới tìm được một chút bình yên?